Inspired Adventures with Mae

It's another weekend with no plans in sight. When your husband works a job that has weekend hours you seem stuck at home. Sometimes when he's gone in evenings or weekends it feels like he's deployed again and I'm doing this "single parent" thing. Being that we live where it's cold in the wintertime, there's a lack of things to go and do with kids of various ages. It's lonely. I have these little people around me and I feel so incredibly lonely. Can you relate? February can be a difficult month for me anyway...just feeling down most years in this month for whatever reason. How do I build friendships? And its weird, I have so many online friends, I have friends scattered throughout the states, but sometimes we just want those in person friends. I want the person who will come over, with or without kids, on a Friday night and just hang out. The one where we spontaneously get together. It's hard. It's lonely. It's isolating.

 I'm back. So many thoughts run through my head today. Perhaps its hormones...I think I've hit the perimenopausal stage...and at that certain time of the month my goodness it seems fierce. Let me start with one thing that's been weighing heavy on me. Community. What is community? How do we build it? Are we part of community? I'm talking like a deep and relational community. I think of the book of Acts. Or even back in college. I was part of an amazing Christian community in college. We did life together. Lived together (some of us). Ate together. Hung out all. the. time. while still passing classes. Sure maybe we didn't have families to care for and demands of a job or "real" adult, but we still had demands. We also still made our friendships a priority. We built that community. And while its been many many years since those college days, I reflect on those and know those are some of the best friends God has ever blessed me with. I know that if we were to

A blog. Why? Why should I? What do I have to offer? Are my random thoughts of value to anyone else? Will they be inspiring? Or even just give that "me too" nod of understanding? Surely I'm not alone. Mae. In this world. Put here for a purpose by my Creator. He's given me great purpose.  So, I will heed this call back into the blogging world and see where it may take me. 🙈